So I got into the habit of asking myself why I think what I think, that’s what they apparently call metacognition.
So I started regularly asking myself why I think what I think, pretty much continuously.
And I started identifying patterns in the way I think, but also in the way the people from the phenomenon mentioned in religions interact with me.
By doing that, I realized it helps to make the experience pleasant.
One day, one of them said to his colleagues, talking about developers I think: « There are even some who call themselves code craftsmen. » With a tone that made it sound a bit ridiculous (that’s how I took it). I don’t know why, it inspired me. So I told myself I was going to become a metacognition craftsman, with my metacognitive tools, and I take stock of my tools several times a day so I don’t forget them.
French street slang, from the Arabic “astaghfirullah” (I seek God's forgiveness). Used the way one might mutter “Lord forgive me” after catching oneself thinking something off-colour.
When I notice that I’m thinking a preconceived idea, that I’m using swear words, that I’m lying, that I’ve got ideas that are a bit too provocative, etc
After a pretty traumatic episode I’ll talk about later, one of them had said, I think: « avoid saying p*tain, say purée ». And on quite a few occasions, some of them called me « scoundrel », « he’s sneaky ».
So I told myself I was going to play along and make an effort when I start having not-great thoughts.
When I started actively correcting my thoughts, I had started to adopt the reflex of telling myself « bad mindset », and one day one of them had said « Starfoullah », so I told myself I was going to swap that in instead.
Ouroboros
Since I’m convinced it exists, without knowing what « it » is, sometimes my thoughts wander and regularly I end up asking myself « Why is it like that? ». I guess it’s bigger than me.
Or sometimes I try to ask myself what they look like, why there are different colleagues throughout the day, or how it can work, etc. I sink into theories that go kind of nowhere, and I go round in circles.
I tell myself it’s my arrogance, thinking I can understand something bigger than me, so it’ll never lead to anything and I’m hurting myself by overthinking while hoping to understand something I’ll probably never understand.
So now, as soon as I start overthinking, I tell myself « Ouroboros » and move on to something else.
Also, they adapt to what I think of them. When I thought they were mafia gangstalkers, well, I really had the feeling I was dealing with mafia gangstalkers. They’re very very very strong, so much so that at one point I was wondering if I hadn’t ended up in a conflict with actors and screenwriters 🤣
It’s probably one of the shakiest definitions of Ouroboros, but then again, I get the feeling everyone interprets it a bit their own way.
I like it
Since I understood that I’m in contact with the people from the phenomenon mentioned in religions, and that I’m no longer trying to fight it, I find it really Epic!
It’s super cool, it’s a way of communicating that goes really far. If I want to talk about the front door of my house with them for example, I don’t need to say it with words, I can just visualize it in my imagination. I can make jokes with images through my imagination, etc.
They can make me see things, in the same way that I visualize them in my imagination.
But also through dreams, sometimes I meet people in my dreams who ask me questions, or often it feels like my dreams are tests, I call them « Pop quiz ». It feels like they put me in a situation and watch what decision I make, while being uninhibited.
I use this tool when they challenge me by making me think for example that it’s annoying, « he couldn’t care less ». I say: « no I like it ».
Things are going well
I have a job, I love my wife, I get along well with my loved ones. I work with clients, I have goals in life that I manage to reach.
And yet they interact with me almost all the time when I’m awake. But since I see the phenomenon positively, the more time passes, the more I have moments of "silence" in everyday life. Same when I talk with someone, I don’t hear them talking most of the time.
I tell myself we make a pretty good collab.
But sometimes, on my own, my stream of thought can turn negative, I wander where I shouldn’t, or else they can give me those thoughts.
And when that happens, I tell myself it’s going well. And that’s really the case, if someone spends a day with me, they won’t notice anything special.
Care Bear mode
I tell myself that to enjoy the experience safely, I adopt an ultra-safe attitude!
I’d never hurt myself or anyone else, on the contrary I even make an effort to be + smiley, open and friendly toward others.
Not that I was an unpleasant person before, but I had withdrawn into myself during that phase of investigation and torment.
That helps me too with what I guess you could call social anxiety: wondering whether someone’s talking about me, or what they might think of me.
They had so much "fun" with that, blowing things up, caricaturing them, that I ended up at a point where I don’t even give it any importance anymore. I got so flooded with words or not-very-nice images coming from them, that I learned to live with it or not give it too much importance, and as a consequence: it seems like that applies to my own negative thoughts too
And I make an effort to look after my physical and mental health: zero meds (I stand by my choice 100%), zero drugs (that was already the case before), almost zero alcohol (I only sometimes take a sip from other people’s glass) because the after-effects tend to leave me feeling rough, even if it’s subtle. I do sports, I only drink water, I don’t snack, I don’t drink coffee, I even don’t eat chocolate anymore to avoid messing with my sleep.
In the same way I managed to control my seborrheic dermatitis 100% with the most neutral baby shampoo possible, I try to adopt the most neutral possible behaviour day to day, and neutral doesn’t mean cold/bland.
An invented French word built on “bovin” (bovine). Chewing over hypothetical scenarios the way cattle chew the cud — French uses “ruminer” for both, so the animal image is right there in the verb.
I’ve noticed that in everyday life, I tend to create stories, not conflicts, but more like ultra-specific and hypothetical scenarios. I think it was a habit I already had even before the people of the phenomenon started interacting proactively with me.
I also used to do rumination, which is sad but I could spend nights projecting myself into situations, often stressful and hypothetical. But not just that, I’ve got a lot of imagination, and I remember that not long after it started, I felt like I could hear those weird neighbours laughing at me at night while I was imagining I was in the middle of a presidential debate for example, even though I was lying in my bed.
Now when I spot that, I tell myself « I’m not boviniste ».
A French pun. The made-up first name “Justin Mecque” sounds exactly like “juste un mec” — “just some guy”, which is the point of the tool.
I’m just a guy. What’s happening to me doesn’t happen to everyone, that’s for sure, but on the other hand, when I see the number of people who say they’re a "victim" of gangstalking on Quora, Reddit, X, etc, I realise that what’s happening to me is happening to plenty of people!
I even tell myself that maybe, gangstalking and schizophrenia are the same thing, and in that case there are even more people in the world.
Apparently there is 1 person in 345 who would be "schizophrenic". That’s about 23 million people in the world.
But apparently up to 10% of people will have experienced auditory hallucinations in their lifetime.
I feel like we talk about schizophrenia when the people of the phenomenon interact with someone and that person experiences it badly/negatively.
I use this tool when sometimes they tell me "you’re the world champion", I जवाब "I’m just a guy". Or back in the day they’d say: "you’re god! Champion! With your winner face", me: "no, I’m just a guy". Or sometimes I start thinking I’m someone special, and when I realise it, I tell myself "I’m just a guy". And above all, I absolutely don’t consider that I have powers, to me it’s them interacting with me.
Intervention necessary
It took me a while to understand but actually, at several points since the beginning they were trying to make me understand in more or less subtle ways that I was thinking/do thinking or doing some not-so-great stuff.
But I realise there’s a big problem with the way society treats people in contact with the people of the phenomenon.
If my view of things, as I present it on this site, was normalised and generally accepted, I’m sure it would have gotten a lot better much faster.
I think it’s possible that in the future, we’ll look back on how common opinion in 2026 sees what’s happening to me as a big load of nonsense.
I use this tool when I start making them feel guilty for dragging me around and making me struggle however they could, and I tell myself "Intervention nécessaire".
Putting the cart before the horse
Sometimes I tell myself: "Oh yes! I’m gonna make a max of people understand this and nobody’s ever gonna suffer the experience again", or else: "it’s gonna become completely normalised by everyone".
Or more generally, sometimes I think about giving what I think is the best solution to everyone even though I myself don’t really follow it.
Or also, a lot of the time I end up thinking about things or even hypothetical situations and skipping loads of steps and thinking way too far ahead, in a hypothetical way, about things that depend on other hypothetical things.
Don’t shout victory too early
Sometimes I tell myself, I’ve finally found the best solution to what’s happening to me, everything seems to be falling back into place, I can finally take back control of my life.
But on the other hand, if I ever put myself in a situation that tends to shake me up/unbalance me, for example: an argument, staying on the pc for too long, getting way too stubborn about a subject, basically, the things that can affect my well-being day to day, well I feel like they pile it on again.
So it reminds me that it’s ongoing work I have to do, even if over time I feel like I’m picking up new habits and overall it’s going better and better.
And actually, it’s this idea that pushed me to want to do metacognition because I’d read during my doom scrolling sessions that to build new habits, all it takes is 3 weeks and after that it becomes natural. So I told myself maybe that applies to the way I think too.
Positive attitude + being happy/fulfilled
From the moment I finally got what the phenomenon was, I thought they were getting in touch to "save the world", or some slightly over-the-top stuff like that.
But I’m realising it’s mostly so I do some personal work.
"That’s what he calls a dream life" one of them said several times. I realise I was living a bit like an adultescent rebel but not too much either. I don’t think what’s happening to me is happening because I’m an extreme. "You’re not the most irresponsible!" he also said, anyway, I don’t see it as a punishment.
I make this site to "immortalise" what’s happening to me but also because I realise there are lots of people who keep blaming the CIA, MK Ultra, V2K, Direct Energy Weapon, DARPA, Targeted Individual, Gangstalking, the Perps, etc. So that might maybe help other people
I realise there’s not everything to throw out in the stuff linked to what people call "gangstalking" on the internet, because it helps people identify patterns in what’s happening to them.
It can help to spread the solution around, it’s win win for everyone I guess.
Thoughtmoji
Sometimes they make me think of things, visualize things, surprising, funny, unsettling, even cringe.
I see it like stickers in WhatsApp but adapted to this way of communicating with the people from the phenomenon.
It’s a much richer communication, with words, awkwardness, images in my imagination, sound, etc
Anyway, when something pops into my head and I find it way too surprising, I tell myself "Ah yeah, that’s a Thoughtmoji".
Stimuli Orchestration
It’s kind of linked to the border collie analogy. I get the feeling that the people from the phenomenon can appreciate the specifics in the way I think, in the same way we can tell all the differences in people’s appearance (height, face, body, etc). They have a very advanced understanding of humans and of the ways they think and react to stimuli.
It’s maybe a bit of a far-fetched analogy but it’s a bit like when we play with a dog, at "fetch the ball". Sometimes we joke around, we pretend to throw the ball, and we watch the dog wondering where it went, the way it reacts, etc.
It looks like they do the same thing but in super sophisticated and smart mode, through stimuli that can take every possible form: phrases, specific voice intonations, aimed at me, aimed at colleagues, a vision in my imagination, etc. And sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t, but over time, and thanks to this metacognitive tool I’ve got more and more ease detecting certain patterns.
I’m talking about orchestration, but to be honest, I don’t know. Sometimes I get the impression it’s a bit like they throw a stone in the pond and watch the waves it makes.
And then they can keep going depending on the reactions it triggers in me to "guide" me in a certain direction, etc
Relax
Sometimes, I feel like my thoughts won’t stop anymore, I can’t stop thinking, I feel like I’m hyperactive in my head, I don’t know how to explain it. It happens to me a lot at night, my brain won’t stop anymore.
Or else, sometimes, I’m super stressed about one thing, or about a bunch of things at the same time.
When I realize that’s happening, I try to tell myself "relax", but honestly, it doesn’t work that much.
Don’t get cocky and don’t underestimate them
Sometimes, I tell myself I’m privileged: I’m in permanent contact with the people from the phenomenon mentioned in religions. I could take risks by believing I’m protected, even if it’s not really my style to take risks, but I avoid it and I pay attention to what I do.
And I don’t underestimate them. Even if I like messing around with them on a daily basis, I’m aware I’m dealing with powerful people.
Buddhist manifestation
Sometimes, I end up thinking about something, a project I’d really like to see come to life in the future, and I imagine and visualize the thing already existing, forgetting all the in-between steps.
And when that happens, sometimes some of them burst out laughing, react, or even say nothing, and I think to myself for example: "Oh yeah, right, they know what I’m thinking about." And I react by saying: "No but it’s a Buddhist manifestation."
Well, this tool may be a bit dumb, but I’m making do with my own experience.
Not letting myself go + making an effort to succeed at what I want to succeed at
Even though all that happens to me, I must not let myself go. I pay attention to my hygiene, I do what needs to be done, I work, I have projects popping into my head, etc.
If I want to succeed in reaching certain things, I have to stay aware that I need to make an effort and that it’s not gonna fall from the sky.
Thinking of others
I try to make an effort, but sometimes I realize I have a tendency to keep too much my head down over the handlebars, too focused on what I’m doing, and I forget to think of others and my loved ones.
Well, I don’t know. Maybe the fact that I often work from home, in front of the computer, doesn’t help much.
I don’t know, I feel like I’m often in my own world and in my own bubble, but not to the point where it becomes a handicap: I have no problem doing everyday things.
I’m saying this because, quite a few times, I’ve already heard some of them say things like: « It shows he’s autistic. » Personally, I don’t think so, and like I said earlier, they can say one thing and its opposite.
That said, it’s true that remote developer work tends to isolate me, and I feel a kind of fatigue when I spend the day looking at screens, when I’ve been sitting all day.
I pulled off the feat of talking only about myself in the Thinking of others tool, gotta hand it to me.
The people of the phenomenon
It may seem counter-intuitive, but actually, the people of the phenomenon are people who seem super nice and straight-up. They look like coworkers who like what they do, even if I don’t know what it is. But the more time passes, the more I manage to identify routines, etc. I know it sounds mad, but apparently I’d stand out, I feel like, because I started making them laugh.
Several times, I’ve heard one of them say to another coworker: « You’d see the fits of laughter he gave us! », « He made people laugh (or "someone", talking about coworkers of the phenomenon, I don’t remember what he said anymore) that I had never seen laugh. »
And it may seem weird, but I make jokes about the situation with them, a bit like Malcolm in Malcolm in the Middle when he talks to the camera about what’s going on at the moment.
I decided to call them "the people of the phenomenon mentioned in religions and stuff", but I think they already have plenty of existing names mentioned in religions.
But I’m realizing that the words we use, when someone hears or reads them, have an impact on the picture they make of it in their head, which can be negative. So I prefer this neutral label.
I use this tool when something negative happens in my life, and I start wanting to blame them.
Now I'm gonna tell you about my everyday life, since it all started, to explain how I got to that conclusion, but also bits of everyday life, dreams, things I think about, etc.
